daydreamer.

there is that song by the beatles. i'm a daydreamer. my mind is like a vivid movie screen continually rolling. if only i could copy what i see. sometimes it's comedic imagined scenes that have me cracking up, and other times it's sheer beauty that i get stuck on. like remembering that long kiss under the stars, the rose bud getting caught in the windshield of the car, or how it felt sitting on the dock at town lake with austin and lauren one summer with the full moon reflecting over the dark water. i often spend time imagining myself in relationships with a wide range of people and will concoct elaborate scenes in my head about these other married or single lives. i've begun to realize as i've gotten older that many people out there do not daydream, and i'm appalled. i suppose it's a prerequisite for writers and artists to have rich imaginations, and not everyone is wired as such.

it has been a beautiful saturday, minus the sxsw craziness cramping my style. i found out that n. had her son last night and r. had her daughter edie this past week. it's spring. tons of women are pregnant. i went for a long walk, onto a coffee house and worked on the poetry book, and am picking up indian food from the clay pit for dinner. i was going to see a friend's art show tonight but am feeling the need to stay in. light some candles and drink wine. read the book i never got the chance to read. downtime is in order. i wish i could take a week vacation to first do absolutely nothing, and to second, dive into painting and crafting.

i feel more excited about the poetry book being published. the content is complete. what i'm working on is the design and layout: choosing the right font, inserting the photographs into text, re-working the visual structure of poems. after much ado, i've decided that probably the best course of action is publishing through lulu dot com so that it will have an isbn number and be available on the interwebs. i'm considering placing a bulk order and selling the books at a release party, instead of having friends place individual orders that add on extra shipping and handling costs. the process feels frustrating at this point. i'm depending on a. to help me with preparing the word doc for lulu submission standards. there are a zillion little details that no one ever told me about publishing a book! lingo crosses over to terms like gutter size, perfect binding, font embedding, etc. i hope that this nightmare of a process is over with by the time my birthday rolls around in three weeks.