on the drive home from wheatsville co-op, the car filled with dinner and dessert, i was listening to the radio show on 94.7, the kim irweson show. a psychic medium was on the air sharing readings to numerous callers. i've had two psychic readings in the past, but felt scammed and have always wanted to have a reading with a true psychic. i jotted down her name and viewed her website. she seems legit from what i can tell....

maybe i should spend my birthday money on a psychic reading, i've thought! i would like to know the answers to certain questions, such as:

-am i going to be in a long term relationship with a man, or a woman?
-why am i feeling pulled in the direction of changing career paths, and is it a sign to do it?
-how is my grandmother (who died about 4 years ago) and what does she think about the situation with my grandfather (whom we have no relationship with)?
-am i on the right path?
-will i be a mother one day?

important questions....

she offers a reading and some sort of "chakra balancing," focused on balancing any blockages someone might have with their energy. it sounds a little hocus pocus, as well as the talk of angels and spirit guides. part of me does not want to know. part of me wants to know what this reading would bring through. i don't want to be ripped off or taken advantage of emotionally, but i think that this psychic could be the one i would select. she has positive, comforting energy.

i have this fear that she is going to tell me i'm going to get married to a man, have 5 kids, and spend the rest of my days before a fucking computer. i would like her to tell me that i'm going to meet this amazing woman and have a child with her 10 years from now, and that i'll be self employed, a prolific artist and writer, and rich. :)