s.i.n.

after watching a horrible phantom of the opera entertainment piece in the midst of the s.i.n. party, i did meet someone last night who is a) a lesbian b) beautiful c) available. she tagged along with my group of friends and this is how we met. i spent time talking and dancing with her. yes. i actually danced in public. she grabbed my hand and led me out onto the floor and pulled me close to her hips. it was so awesome. she has these beautiful blue eyes, which i'm always a sucker for. we must have danced for about an hour to some crazy techno music. but... this one woman butted in when we were dancing and "stole" her away for the rest of the night, asking her to go outside alone with her away from the party. i had to chase her down and exchange phone numbers before going home at 2 a.m. as a feminist, i'm not going to fight other women for another woman. if eden* (pseudonym) is interested, then she has my digits. i will most likely send her a message soon. this other woman, whose name will go unmentioned, has never been very nice to me. i had a bad feeling about the night when she showed up at the party and hovered around my friends. i knew she probably wanted eden. it was no surprise to me that she would pull a move like that on me, knowing full well that this is the woman i was interested in and that we were in the middle of dancing on the floor. i like to live in a world where "nice girls finish first." the first woman i slept with wore underwear with that written across it. i haven't forgotten it. this other woman may have captured eden's attention at the end of the night, but it does not mean that they are going to date or be in a relationship. you never know. i was just feeling really bummed upon driving home that the night had taken a downward turn. the dating world feels so difficult and competitive and cut-throat, but at least i'm getting out and meeting new people and one of these days, i will have a great girlfriend.