crush.

here it is. the last woman/man/person i made out with on earth was e, my ex-girlfriend, and i have tried to detach myself from memories of her touch. to think there used to be a time in life when i would never go more than 3 months without making out with someone. 2008 has been a year of physical and spiritual cleansing, and i'm absolutely ready for someone new to fall into my world. i do not need any more time alone. thank you. i am perfectly fine left to my own devices. i drew the line with d. the other night after the movie. i like him. i would like us to be friends. trouble is when he hugged me goodbye, and i turned towards him, he had the impression that i wanted to kiss him and believes that i came onto him. i do not know how in the world this grave misunderstanding could have happened. maybe people see what they want to see? it was certainly one of the most awkward dates of my existence. we're scheduled to watch a swedish vampire movie soon and i'm going to have to be gentle but firm with communication. obviously i need to speak up about where we stand.//the lady hunt begins on the eve of december 31st. there is someone i've had an interest in, a positive sign that i am moving on from e. this girl showed up in town a couple of months ago. we've talked a couple of times. flirted. it does not hurt that she is a musician either, as i discovered today. when i think of myself with someone, i most often envision an artist/musician/poet. this singer-songwriting stranger has the most amazing, positive, pure, kind energy that is apparent right away. i was drawn to this about her. electrified by it actually. she is someone who wears her heart on her sleeve, and that is so rare to find. i wondered where she was from with her sweet southern accent. i cannot divulge any more specifics about where and what and when. she is a crush, and i'm going to see her perform on new year's eve. i may be a little too tongue-tied and need another glass of champagne. hell, she probably has a girlfriend. but it's nice to have someone new to like.